life goes on...

so I have successfully returned from another family vacation. While it was really fun i cant get over the fact that i now have the option of going on these trips or not. Life is moving forward, sometimes too fast. Looking through prom pictures and thinking back to classes that I loved has made me quite emotional. At graduation it was easy for me to look at my closest friends and say "Ill see you soon", because back then I really believed it. I had everyone tell me that after graduation you never hang out with your old friends again i just never realized that it could be true. I have had some of the best friends going through high school, and I have had Friends that I was ready to leave behind. My life is changing and its seems really fast. I will be going to my last Fine Arts in a week, and while it has never been a goal of mine to win, every year it was just something I would do. It had become routine. While my siblings are getting their class schedules and learning which team they will be on I am looking for an apartment. To be honest it is very overwhelming. But what I am trying to get at, is that I would pray while in school for God to take me out of my routine and for him to use me. I feel now that I'm out of my routine I want it again. The fear of having to enter life, to set career plans and everything is crazy. But I know that God takes you out of you routines and your safe zones so that he can work in your life.
I cant wait for God to start opening doors for me, I cant wait to get on the track he has for my future. I will live in psalm 37:5 "Commit your ways to the Lord, trust in Him, and he will bring them about"... just typing that brought a bit of calm...